I miss you

I miss having friends in town to came over and vist. I know i have Sierra but its not the some . Must

people that love me are kids, don't get me wrong, I love kids, but I miss people my own age.

I did have 2 friends but they were nothing but losers and liars, what made me mad the must they

always made me pick them or Steve. I can not do that. so I told them to leave me alone, it was been

over a year now.

I do have 2 really good friends, but they don't life in the some sate, its hard I only seem them

once a year. I known one of them for 15 years, the other one for 12 years. I know who my real

friends are. The best part is even Sierra loves them.

I wish I could make more friends but its hard when I'm never alone,Its great that Steve as a

friend that he sees all the time, It seems like my lap top as been my only friend and its sad.

So thats how I been feeling lately.

Sierra

Sierra is doing a great job this year... she is talking more, and also fully potty trained day and night.. My new fav is Sierra saying "Yes Mom".

I'm still getting use to having her talk.. so she says new words every day. \

She will be 4 soon and I'm so proud of her.. She as came a long way in the last year.

She is also doing great at school, she loves it there...

We are having a birthday party for her on 4/1o and she has 2 of her friends from school coming and I think thats a great big step in her big girl life. So I cannot wait to see what she does next.

I'm doing a great job with her so far. I also think I'm a great stay at home mom.

I also do a lot of things she loves to do like play outside, read books and letting her try do things

for herself also.

She is also really into Dora and no more Wiggles. So Steve and I are are so happy no more Wiggles.

Thats the new update on Sierra so far.

Fall Of 2009

I'm having a very good year so far.
Sierra want to a school for a 30min for 2 days a week for 6 weeks this summer she loved it at school ,and she will go to school this Thursday is her 1st day for 2 hours for a 3 year old schooling and she will be going for 2 days a week 8-10 and they will help her, so Tuesday and Thursday will be her mornings. So she is not a baby anymore. For me I"m good, I like my time when she is napping . She loves to :). She is all most 3 1/2, she is looking like me more and more.
I thought I would up date everyone on Sierra.

Steve and I are fine,we been together for 8 years.

The summer is on its way

Sierra on the swings at a park at my moms, she did not want to get out. She wanted to stay in it all day it was fun seeing her smile and be happy. She had a good time with daddy

Sierra 3 Now

Sierra is blowing bubbles all by herself.

My dad got Sierra to take a long nap for me last Friday, it was a nice Mothers day gift


Sierra doing what she dose best being so cute


Sierra full sleep on me, A few weeks ago. I take the pix because I cannot tell if she was sleeping or not and this is the what I saw after I took the pix

Easter 2009

Sierra going to play with the kids


Sierra and a boy she was playing ball with


The things Nana got her for Easter


Sierra sleeping on the way to the girls on Easter. Only a 15 min nap

Sierra and Ann on Easter before we had dinner.

The person who gives me hell

I'm happy that MS is out of my

life and I hope it stays that way. We

got in fights before but not like this,

she never stops texting me, never stops

leaving me notes on facebook. but now

she has stopped and I hope it stays that

way. And she was telling me that steve

put moves on her. He would not do

that. She is full of shit. She needs to

spend time looking for a job and spend

more time with her son and stop doing

this shit she is doing. I liked her better

8 years ago. She even made 2 guys be

friends with me so she could see what

I've been up to. that's not what a friend

does. I'm so much happier without

her. She needs to work on what type of

person she wants to be. No one likes

her because of it. We are so done with

her. She can kiss my ass and f...

herself. I'm happy i blocked her from

myspace and facebook. She cannot see my

profile on my space anymore, so she had her

boy friend friend me to check up on me, It

it happen today.


BYE xoxoxox

Todder Idol

The best of the day

4 yes's you are going to Hollywood

What I'm Doing For Myself This Year

I'm not going to have any more bull shit in my life. So no more MS or LH in my life. I'm not going to be walked all over and no more crying, and I'm not going to have them say I did this or that, when I did nothing wrong. And I'm done fighting with Redbeard about it.

New years day was my last day with the bull shit. MS and I got in a fight over a guy that wanted me to friend him on facebook and myspace and i added him and now we are friends, so one day she said she is not with him anymore because he friended a girl she told him not to and I asked her if the girl was me and she said why would it be u? So he and I talked and he told me it was me after all and i do not like people who lie to me. So I'm done, and it's not good for Sierra either.
So far its been nice and quite. I should have done this a long time ago and it took her 2 weeks to stop texting me so bye for now...

Sierra Playing In The Snow

She dose not know what to do in the snow, so she just sits there and feels the snow, its real cute, she will not walk in the snow.......

Merry Christmas

I want to wish every one a Merry Christmas and happy 2009

I want to use Christmas pix that i found to make people happy ,I hope it dose

A Pre-Thanksgiving Thankful Wish

It's coming to the time of year where everyone declares what they're thankful for. So here's what I'm thankful for in no particular order.

1. I'm thankful for my best friend whom I'll see again on Thanksgiving morning.

2. For my husband for taking a few days off to spend at home with the family.

3. For seeing my whole family on Thursday.

Happy Thanksgiving Bloggers!

Nothing but the littile girl

My big 30

Last week, October 31 (yes, Halloween), we celebrated my 30th birthday. Redbeard took the day off work and we were very busy that day. He took us out for breakfast first and went to visit his co-workers to show off Sierra in her costume.

We then traveled across the state to see my best friend. We had lunch together and we spent a few hours with her and her youngest kid. From there it was a short drive to my grandfather's where my 3 aunts and uncle joined us for my birthday and Halloween celebration. They made my favorites for dinner and we took Sierra out trick or treating. She lasted only about 3 or 4 blocks before she started getting tired and chilly. She still doesn't really understand yet and she might have been a little scared - she was reluctant to go up to doors and she can't say trick or treat yet on command. We stayed the night there and traveled back home the next day, stopping at my great aunts for lunch.

Just leave me alone

Redbeard keeps on asking me to do something for myself - I told him I never do anything for myself. People who read asshole - well I'm doing something for myself, I'm no longer talking to "the HO" for the rest of my life, she had something to do with the asshole story.

So I sent a nice e-mail to her all about it, and it took her 3 days to write me back. She thinks she had nothing to do with him and I! We all know she did. I'm stick of her shit and her using me to get to guys.

I blocked her e-mail address, her phone numbers and myspace to. I feel so much better and Redbeard and I do not fight as much anymore and I feel so much better and this is what I did for myself.

She keeps on texting me and saying things like I'm sorry and trying to have me be her friend so she can use me again.

I'm so done with her, she is not a friend people want to know. When you meet her she acts all nice but it does not last long. So if people have a friend in your life that uses you, do not stay friends with them. I should know.

An asshole

I was friends with db for like 3 months or so. We had lots of fun. He was a great guy, I knew this guy from high school.

He had his mom over last week and he thinks I told his mom about us and if I did I said we were just friends. We were all good last weekend and now it's all over.

So today he keeps on texting me mean things about me... saying I'm a messy person and I'm not a clean person. I told him I have a toddler and its hard to keep a place clean, she like so to make big messes so I clean once in the morning and once after she falls sleep at night. If I'm lucky I maybe able to clean in the afternoon.

So that's my story. I'm done with assholes and mean people in my life.

Sierra and her friend Christina

We were at my friends place all day on Thursday. This is Sierra with her friend thats 10 days older than sierra. They been friends from the day they were born.

Sierra is real good with people and kids, she knows how to share and play good with kids all ages. She may not say a lot but she but thats ok. She is what she likes to say right now, puppy, up and drown, door and car.

What I do for fun

I have made 3 hats in 2 weeks. That's the only thing that Sierra lets me do and it gives me something to do when she is sleeping.

I think of people who I can make a hat for!!!! I made one for a girlfriend, and I made one for a guy friend and I also made one for someone that I work with, that I've just finished. I try to use a lot of different colors and yarn types and will knit 2 or 3 different kinds of yarn together, creating stripes like the one Sierra is wearing in the photo.

I cannot do anything else I like when she is not in bed.
So this is for anyone that likes doing crafts!!

No more shit

I'm no longer friends with MS, I really thought she has changed. One day when I was working, she texted me and Redbeard told her I was working, but he talked to her. By the way she has this thing that every time you ask her something, she always has to ask why. So Redbeard asked her something and after that she needed to know why - he then asked why do you always have to ask why since supposedly we're her friends. Then they get in a very messy fight where she got really nasty and offended me - he saved and showed me the texts.

So I'm giving up on her for good. I know she will always be the same. I have done so much for her in the last 7 years, and even Redbeard was starting to like her. Every time she came over with her son he took her home and made dinner with them. So I no longer have her on Facebook and Myspace.

I'm doing so much better without her, I told her to stop texting me and last weekend she text me again. She does not act her age, but that will never happen.

Best friends for life

That is my best friend Erin, I met her for the first time today in 10 years since I last saw her in high school. We were best friends for almost 20 years. We have everything in common. You name it - we have it in common. We even lived close to each other when we were kids, and we liked each other's brothers too. We only had one hour together today but we got to see each other's photos. We are only 3 years apart in age.

I was always thinking of her, I kept on looking for her on Facebook but in time she came to find me on Facebook. We talk everyday on myspace. She now lives about 2 hours away.

I'm happy we are good friends again and nothing has changed, and I really like that. It's nice to have a friend that is nice to me and does not fight with me all the time.