Nothing but the littile girl

My big 30

Last week, October 31 (yes, Halloween), we celebrated my 30th birthday. Redbeard took the day off work and we were very busy that day. He took us out for breakfast first and went to visit his co-workers to show off Sierra in her costume.

We then traveled across the state to see my best friend. We had lunch together and we spent a few hours with her and her youngest kid. From there it was a short drive to my grandfather's where my 3 aunts and uncle joined us for my birthday and Halloween celebration. They made my favorites for dinner and we took Sierra out trick or treating. She lasted only about 3 or 4 blocks before she started getting tired and chilly. She still doesn't really understand yet and she might have been a little scared - she was reluctant to go up to doors and she can't say trick or treat yet on command. We stayed the night there and traveled back home the next day, stopping at my great aunts for lunch.

Just leave me alone

Redbeard keeps on asking me to do something for myself - I told him I never do anything for myself. People who read asshole - well I'm doing something for myself, I'm no longer talking to "the HO" for the rest of my life, she had something to do with the asshole story.

So I sent a nice e-mail to her all about it, and it took her 3 days to write me back. She thinks she had nothing to do with him and I! We all know she did. I'm stick of her shit and her using me to get to guys.

I blocked her e-mail address, her phone numbers and myspace to. I feel so much better and Redbeard and I do not fight as much anymore and I feel so much better and this is what I did for myself.

She keeps on texting me and saying things like I'm sorry and trying to have me be her friend so she can use me again.

I'm so done with her, she is not a friend people want to know. When you meet her she acts all nice but it does not last long. So if people have a friend in your life that uses you, do not stay friends with them. I should know.

An asshole

I was friends with db for like 3 months or so. We had lots of fun. He was a great guy, I knew this guy from high school.

He had his mom over last week and he thinks I told his mom about us and if I did I said we were just friends. We were all good last weekend and now it's all over.

So today he keeps on texting me mean things about me... saying I'm a messy person and I'm not a clean person. I told him I have a toddler and its hard to keep a place clean, she like so to make big messes so I clean once in the morning and once after she falls sleep at night. If I'm lucky I maybe able to clean in the afternoon.

So that's my story. I'm done with assholes and mean people in my life.

Sierra and her friend Christina

We were at my friends place all day on Thursday. This is Sierra with her friend thats 10 days older than sierra. They been friends from the day they were born.

Sierra is real good with people and kids, she knows how to share and play good with kids all ages. She may not say a lot but she but thats ok. She is what she likes to say right now, puppy, up and drown, door and car.

What I do for fun

I have made 3 hats in 2 weeks. That's the only thing that Sierra lets me do and it gives me something to do when she is sleeping.

I think of people who I can make a hat for!!!! I made one for a girlfriend, and I made one for a guy friend and I also made one for someone that I work with, that I've just finished. I try to use a lot of different colors and yarn types and will knit 2 or 3 different kinds of yarn together, creating stripes like the one Sierra is wearing in the photo.

I cannot do anything else I like when she is not in bed.
So this is for anyone that likes doing crafts!!

No more shit

I'm no longer friends with MS, I really thought she has changed. One day when I was working, she texted me and Redbeard told her I was working, but he talked to her. By the way she has this thing that every time you ask her something, she always has to ask why. So Redbeard asked her something and after that she needed to know why - he then asked why do you always have to ask why since supposedly we're her friends. Then they get in a very messy fight where she got really nasty and offended me - he saved and showed me the texts.

So I'm giving up on her for good. I know she will always be the same. I have done so much for her in the last 7 years, and even Redbeard was starting to like her. Every time she came over with her son he took her home and made dinner with them. So I no longer have her on Facebook and Myspace.

I'm doing so much better without her, I told her to stop texting me and last weekend she text me again. She does not act her age, but that will never happen.